Its thursday… whooo hooo!? yay?! hahaha nothing much going down but yeah tom is gunna be a professional day. hahah lols ionn0 i aint going out today for some reason…. blahhhhh feeling so sick and disgusted cuz alll mah friendzz ditched and went to bid farewelll to that certain person whoz leaving for pinas and might never come back. Ionn0 mahnnn i dont really know what to do in terms of this grudge i keep. maybe alll this nonesense should stop? maybe i should go and talk to her about it? maybe she doesnt know what i feel bout all that shit? maybe i should have went and say goodbye? i could have said sorry and fix it. I would have not been writing this entry if i was to tell her im sorry and goodbye. It’s liek teh song Shoulda, coulda, woulda… blehhhhh but since the holy week is comming in quick, that is one thing i want to do. I want to “talk” and compromise about our quarrelsome acts… I should have been there for her that sunday night but i guess everything juss fell apart.. but fcuk ionn0 what to do with her. I know she had family problems and I DEFINITELY KNOW THAT SHE JUST RECENTLY HAVE A BAD RELATIONSHIP but that wouldnt have happned if i guided her back then. The night at the nightmarket wouldnt have happened if the misunderstanding of another person(ehem, ehem A****T ) didnt get worse! It was that person who was plastic not you. i knew u were mature enough to figure that shyt out! but it turned out that u were too haughty and proud to see what the true reality is… I don’t want to classify u and shit but i have no choice but to. It’s liek u, urself, kaw na rin ang naghanap ng paraan pra mka layo ka samen . We were always tehre but we couldnt manage to pull u back. Days passed by as u dive deeper and deeper into this hateful world. problems piled up as u ignore them, ur school don’t give as shit as much u dont give a shit too. U, ur sister and ur mom are the only family u have and yet u help out in ruining ur relationship by addressing them as “non-exsistent”. I don’t undestand the way you plead to say sorry and soon u’ll be doing it again. I have never seen a person change so quickly in 2-3 months, from a Straight A student to a straight E crackwhore. who’d have known howd ud turn out with out capable and understanding friends, with the exception of some out there that are just easily influenced like you. It’s like you do good things to the 10th power then u do the worst things to the 10th power also. I just don’t understand… but i guess that is how u will be until tomorrow…… Tomorrow when you depart, i juss want to bid u adeiu, hopefully u would realize what u have have done and recognize ur mistakes… words can express my P.O.V. but no words can express how i feel about my aching heart…
ONLYJAYPEE. 